Lara Guerrero’s husband has been dead for nearly four years. She keeps his urn by her bedside and kisses it each morning and night. She tells her husband’s ashes about her day, how the kids are doing, how much she loves him and misses him. Guerrero does not believe her pain will ever lift. She is 42. “I miss my husband so much,” Guerrero said Tuesday, days after a jury awarded her husband’s estate $7 million in a wrongful-death lawsuit against